Recap

Last week, from wednesday on, was not too shabby. It went by quickly enough, as far as work was concerned, and I stayed relatively busy. Work is promising to keep me active for a while.

The weekend was great, for obvious reasons. Quite full of conversation and a bit of adventure.
There was even an attempt at getting homework done.

The wheels are ever spinning. The Pursuit is never ending.

Semicolons, Green Eyes, and Cognac

Today I got up at a decent time, took a box of cereal to work, and did the whole Carpe Diem thing. Also, I showered and shaved.

Today I can focus, so far at least. A strange contrast from the past weeks, and days. There is far less wondering in my mind, less worry, less distracting thought. It is still there, but, I feel the oncoming approach of a return to sanity, if ever I was there, and wonder what that will look like. I can't remember the last time I had so much, peace.

Slowly I am being taught, and learning, to quit striving; to quit trying so hard to do so much on my own; to actually trust. To actually believe that not only am I not in control, but it's for the best that I am not.

It seems that as I progress in this, walk, instead of my expectation that parts of my future would become clear, or defined, they are becoming open. It nears an odd feeling similar to apathy, but more closely tied to surrender. Surrender with a smile. It's not that I don't care, it's simply that I don't know, and not knowing no longer kills me; well, almost, we're getting there.

Dinner->Gym->?

Not enough (sleep, time, you)

I blame Eric for my inability to rise this morning.
Well, I only partially blame him, I should go to bed far earlier.
Yesterday was good. Life class was very long, good, but long. A large amount of material. Had a lot of trouble focusing. That's becoming an issue lately.

Work brings no relief from the distrations running through my mind, but nonetheless I begin to manage to get things done. Not at the moment obviously. Class in 15 minutes.

Class was fine. Stole some soup that has been sitting around the office as long as I can remember, am consuming. Really need to go to the store to buy food...
Listening to Cake, debugging code, talking to people. Eating ice cream.

Bible study has been moved to tonight in lieu of Bill Nye on wednesday.

I really need to shave. And get a haircut.

Fire Department meeting again tonight, not really much to note. Might drive some trucks.

Need to run/swim. Very tired. Listening to Cake, trying not to fall asleep. Need to work on project for my Operating Systems class.

Still in awe.

Staying late at work, to work on a schedule.

A week between posts, and thanks where it is due

And what a week.
Best birthday ever, quite possibly.
There was no need for the typical requirements of a 21st celebration.

This cup I have asked for Lord
That You would let me partake
Now, teach me to drink
For my lips are new
And I am weak
Let not my thirst be draining
Teach us to drink from this cup
Overflowing keep it
Allelujah Amen